I just want one break!

Ever feel like you want to be cut just one break in life? I know that everyone has hard times. I know that we don't get everything we want or think we need, and I know that we usually almost always turn out to be a better person in the long run because of it. But in the moment it is very hard to feel like one more time you are let down. Like there was another moment that passed you by. It seems so easy sometimes to quit trying, because if you aren't trying then you can't be let down. But I know we can't just give up and quit in life. I am where I am now because I took risks and because I was told no more times than I was told yes and because I tried hard over and over. So I know it's worth it, but it's just so hard!
My facebook status today totally sums it up for me: "It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever."
(I almost wanted to add "right?" to the end of it, but I figured that was just fishing for things I already know are true.)

My Daddy

I love my daddy! He is seriously the best guy that I know. Every time I've ever liked or dated a guy, I've wondered to myself what my dad would think. Is he good enough to meet my dad? Is he going to treat me like my dad taught me I deserved to be treated? He is seriously so funny. Everyone thinks he is a little scary, but he is just a huge teddy bear. Whenever I am sad, I call my dad. When I am happy I call my dad. When I need help, I call my dad. When I am scared, lonely, afraid, depressed, torn, upset, excited or anything else, I call my dad. He is the one person who I can totally be myself with. When I am on the verge of crying I call my dad, because I am the best at crying to him, and he is the best at listening and hugging! He is just seriously so amazing and I thank Heavenly Father every day for letting me be a part of his life. I love you daddy, and I hope you had a great Fathers Day! And a Happy Birthday (tomorrow). You are incredible and we are all lucky to have you in our lives!

My Weekend

So I spent this last weekend over at my parents house. We had so much fun! We went swimming, played games, had friends/family over, and just chilled. Definitely fun and needed quality time!
On Saturday we were sitting around while my dad played songs off his Shazam app and made my mom guess who sang what song. (p.s...she wasn't so good...) :) Then out of nowhere my dad asked what our favorite tv commercial was. I was thinking about it when my mom said "I don't know, but I HATE that subway commercial with the firemen!" And that's when I decided that it's my favorite. I love it. I started quoting it and my dad started laughing because it's his favorite too. My mom just doesn't get it, but I find it so funny!
For those of you who don't know what I'm talking about, here is the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CNQQeeeToAQ&feature=youtube_gdata_player
Also over the weekend I got my hair colored brown and had about 3 inches cut off. I love it. It's so different, and it's hard to get used to, but I love it anyways.
So that was my weekend in a very weird nut-shell! :) Hope you all enjoyed your weekends1

"Too Qualified"

I want someone to explain to me how a person can be "too qualified" for a job. It's like the lamest reason to get turned down for a job. Seriously, just say you didn't like how I interviewed, or you hired someone you knew. Just come out and say we didn't like you for the job. But to say "You had the most experience, but we decided you were too qualified" is like a slap in the face. It's so annoying. If a person with a bachelors degree decides they want to work at Mcdonalds, then it doesn't matter if he is "too qualified" for the job, it's a job he wanted/needed to apply for. I just hate "too qualified"...what a cop out!

Absence does make my heart grow fonder.

Sometimes it's hard to forget an old friend. It's hard to forget all the good times you had together. Even when I try to think of the bad times (because trust me, we had those) it still seems like they were so worth it in the end because the good times were so much better after the bad times. Sometimes we fought and yelled and didn't agree with the other person, but it brought us closer. We really had to fight to see the other point of view, but once you realized where they were coming from you felt so much better about them than before.
Last night as I was trying to sleep it seemed like I couldn't turn off my brain. I couldn't seem to stop thinking about a person who I'm not really friends with anymore. And trying not to think of him was making me miss him even more. I know that people move on and grow apart, but I hate that it has to leave such an emptiness. I guess I just hate that I miss him.
I think the reason I am thinking so much about said person is because his birthday is this week. I sent him an email today saying happy birthday. I told him that I missed him. I didn't want to "weird him out" but I really wanted him to know. And it's weird because I don't want to start liking him again (or wanting a relationship) with him. I've moved on in that area and I really think he and I are good as just friends. When I started to want more than friendship is when things started to get so complicated. But I don't want him gone forever. Forever is too long to be without such an awesome person in my life.
Well, that's all I have to say. I guess I was hoping that writing it out would help me feel better or more clear about the situation, but it didn't really work. But at least you all know that there is this awesome person out there that, even if he doesn't ever come back, was so amazing that I am a better person today because he was in my life.

Bachelorette Party

So last night we threw a bachelorette party for Meriam. We had so much fun! Jessie had a great plan to go to a hotel overnight, so then she had a few of us help plan (and fund) the night and it was a success! We all gathered at a hotel in South Jordan and we were able to get 2 adjoining rooms so we were all together. We decorated, ate pizza (and lots of treats), swam, played games, painted our nails, laughed, talked, listened to music and had an awesome night! I think (hope) Meriam really enjoyed the night. We had Lori (Meriam's mom), Becky (my mom), me, Jessie (my sister), Chelsea (friend), Gus (Maid of Honor and best friend of the bride), and of course Meriam. We also had another friend of the family Debbie stop by for awhile to play games with us. We had so much fun and I thought it was just exciting to all get together away from our houses and stresses and just spend the night playing and enjoying each others company. So much fun. And now for the wedding! Our bridesmaid dresses are finally done (we had to add straps) and we are ready! I still can't believe that Meriam is getting married. So weird to think about but also so exciting because Henry is awesome!
(no pics because...well I just forgot to take pictures all night last night and all morning today. we just had too much fun!)

My grandparents

So I have been living with my grandparents now for about 2 1/2 years. We pretty much have our routines, we all do our own things, and we know what needs to be done and who needs help, etc. I don't think much about it really.

At times I'm reminded that they are old by the things they do, but that's rare. Sure, grandpa is getting a little more forgetful. Yes I have to show him multiple times how to do the same thing on his new smart phone. Sometimes grandma needs help because she can't do everything for herself. And sometimes I'm reminded how lucky I am to be living with them and how awesome this time I am spending with them is. I know they won't be here forever. I hope they are here for several more years, but I am so grateful that I will always have had this time with them. It's awesome!

But as awesome as it is, sometimes my grandpa is just so intense! Meriam and I tell him sometimes that he can't talk to us until about 10am...because he is chipper and happy and ready to go by 7am...and we're not. Sometimes grandma tells him to go out to the shop because he's talking to much. :) And sometimes he is just too cute not to listen to the story he's telling you that you've heard several times before! I love it. I love the moments that I have with them.

And I thought I'd share one of those awesome moments with you. My grandma is finally feeling better after all of her health delays, and she wants to get out. She has spent alot of time inside the last several months so now that she's feeling better and that it's warm she wants to be out doing things. So she talked my grandpa into taking her camping. They went just overnight a few weeks back, but this time they are going for a couple of days. They got all packed up today and loaded the camper and the car. As they are getting things ready to go my grandpa said he needed to talk to me about something. He sounded pretty serious so I went over and sat down to listen. This is what he had to say:
"Kayla, grandma and I will be leaving tonight and won't be back until Saturday afternoon. I just wanted to let you know that grandma and I won't judge you if you ask Jessie (my sister) or Meriam (my cousin) to sleepover with you. I've been afraid of the dark since I was a kid, so if you need friends to sleepover so you're not alone, it's ok. Just know we won't judge you."
And then he got up and went back to packing. (And last time they went camping overnight? I got the same talk...) I just think it's so funny. I'm 28 and have stayed alone several times before, but it's good to know that he and my grandma won't judge me...I was starting to worry about that. :)

Bedtime Snack

For some reason tonight I was so hungry before bed. I didn't really want to eat anything, but my tummy was grumbling and I had to take some medicine with food anyways, so I decided to give in. :) So I ate some carrots. Why? I have no idea. I don't usually "crave" carrots, but for some reason it was the only thing that sounded good to me. So carrots it was, and let me just say that they tasted as good as I had hoped!

Withdrawals

I miss football. Bottom line, end of story. I used to not be a huge football fan, but the last several years I have loved it and I really miss it all the months that it is gone. I miss having teams to like, I miss watching games every Sunday and Monday nights. I miss fantasy football, and "bets" with my cousins, and yelling at the tv, and talking "cute football guy" lingo with my grandma. :)

Hi, my name is Kayla and I have an addiction.
("Hi, Kayla!" inserted here)
BRING BACK FOOTBALL! :)

My new talents...

I have several new talents these days. Who knew, right?! However...just like in real life, it doesn't take much talent at times to have talent. See for yourself.

Making play-doh giraffes, and striped people. Painting the fingernails of a wiggly 3 year old. Rocking a screaming baby to sleep while cutting chicken nuggets for a 3 year old and talking an old man through how to make a phone call on his new smart phone. Driving while holding a binky in the mouth of a baby who (apparently) loves to scream while I'm driving. Teaching an un-electonicly-inclined person how to play a game on an ipad while laying on my stomach on a bed across the room because it's the only comfortable position I could find at the time. Crying 3 different times during America's Got Talent even though there wasn't really anything sad about it. And basically being super awesome!

See...not all of those are "real" talents, but I'm claiming them anyways because sometimes you gotta accept the random, crazy things that make you who you are! :)

Thanksgiving Point Gardens

This afternoon I went with Meriam, Lori (her mom), and Agustina (the maid-of-honor) to the Thanksgiving Point Gardens for Meriam's bridal photos. She looked amazing! I still can't believe she's old enough to get married, but after seeing her all dressed up with her hair and makeup and in the dress with the flowers... there are no words to describe how beautiful she was. She is definitely a beautiful bride!

I took several pictures of her (behind the photographer of course) but I'm not posting any of them because she's keeping her dress a secret from Henry and I would hate for him to see it because of me. So I attached a few pictures, but none of the dress. You get some flowers, Lori and Gus and one of just Meriam's head! :)

I had such a fun day. I had never been to Thanksgiving Point Gardens before and it was amazing! It's so huge and so beautiful. We took a golf cart around (there were 5 of us and a very heavy dress) so it was definitely worth it. It was such a cool place with so many things to look at. I loved it and will for sure be going back sometime!

My mom...

I just thought I'd say how much I love my mom! She is always there for me. She is always supportive even when I do stupid things or make poor choices. And she is the best friend a girl could ask for!

She also may kill me for posting the picture of her sleeping.

And she is a GREAT sport so she won't be too mad.

The sleeping picture is what she looks like when she wakes up. We call it her "stroke face". (Which I intend no ill thoughts or jokes towards anyone who has had a stroke. It's not something to joke about, I know. It's just what we call her, so no offense!)

The other picture is a picture we took for Meriam. It was titled "Cheeto Cheex"! :)